Just when you start to feel like you might be digging yourself out of a hole, life loves to come along and slap you right back into it face-first it seems. Last night I found a decent sized lump on my dog's side (I just lost my second dog about a month ago, very suddenly and unexpectedly) so now I'm scrambling to figure out how to pay a giant vet bill associated with at best, biopsy and bloodwork and possibly surgery to remove it. Add that to the worry of whether his poor life is compromised if it's cancerous. I've never left the vet here with any less than a $600 bill and usually they are about $1000 or more. It's insane compared to the costs where I used to live and I'm still adjusting to that. But when I'm barely ekeing by to start with, let's just say that the stress is too much right now.
The property tax bill came the other day too. Oh boy. Stupid Virginia.
I also have to figure out how to get my divorce pushed through by the end of the year or I'm going to have to file taxes married but separate again, which screwed me last year. Another chunk of change I didn't have but had to pay Uncle Sam anyways. Add to that the rediculous lawyer's retainer I'm about to pay because they can't find him to give him the papers, making it contested and therefore I have to pay (in spite of my contributing to the legal fund every month since I started working here for this very reason, because it covers most legal costs as long as it's not contested). Why does it have to be so hard to end things quickly and easily?
I still hate work (HATE). And no one will give me a second job because places like restaurants and retail apparently don't like to hire people with semi-professional full-time day jobs. Gotta love it.
Beastie Boys show in Richmond tonight. I tried to sell my ticket yesterday once I found out about the impending vet bill, but no luck. So I'm can't justify wasting the money completely and I'm going to go, but damn, why can't life just give me one little break? Just one.
*extends middle finger to the world today*
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