I'm still not ready to really talk about what has happened to my marriage over the last year or so, but at this point, it's probably safe to fess up that it's over. Not legally yet, but it's done. It wasn't my choice and it has left me with some real heartbreak, but it is what it is. When you can't control the outcome of things, you just have to learn to live with them and move on.

While I'm not ready to jump into a serious relationship anytime soon, I have to say that I am excited and somewhat terrified to have a date next week. Nothing fancy, movie and maybe some dinner and pool. It has been a very long time since I've been on the singles scene and I am so nervous I think I might feel like throwing up on the date, but at the same time, it is nice to have some validation that I'm worthwhile. I have really come out of this tragic situation with a stronger sense and liking for who I really am, and I'm happy with myself and happy to share that self with new people here. I'm looking forward to just meeting some new people here who I really have things in common with and starting to develop some new relationships with lots of new people.